Jenny Hodges. Tampa Librarian. Book Lover. Slow Runner. Weight Watcher. SharePoint Wife. Mom to Irish Triplets. Living and Traveling in the Autism World.

24. April 2015 08:55
by jennifer

When the "After" Becomes the "Before" and it's okay

24. April 2015 08:55 by jennifer | 7 Comments

In 2008 I started what I thought would be my last attempt at losing weight.

I did it.

I lost over 200 pounds. 

I reached my goal weight in June 2011.

157 pounds.

But I'm not smiling in this photo. I had to go back through the comments I wrote about this photo on Facebook:

"I Still have some tweaking and toning to do."

Why couldn't I have been happy with how far I had come?

I started off here, give or take a few pounds. 

And now I feel like I am back there again. 

Maybe not quite where I was back in the beginning, but certainly no where near where I was in the after. Because this time I'm smiling Cool

I'm OK! I'm happy. I love my job, I love my family, I love my friends. 

Throughout this 6 year journey I have learned so much.

1. I LOVE TO EXERCISE. Throughout this journey I have NEVER stopped working out. Sure, the type of exercise I have done has changed, but exercise That's been ongoing. 

2. I HAVE ISSUES WITH FOOD. Serious issues. I always knew this, but I thought I beat those demons, which is why I stopped going to Weight Watchers. I kept that goal weight of 157 pounds (+-4 pounds) until April 2013. And then I stopped going to meetings, and I started to notice the tick-up on the scale. I didn't think my diet had really changed, so I contributed it to building muscle since I had started CrossFit just a month or so earlier. 

3. I NEED TO WORK OUTSIDE THE HOME. In November 2012 I quit my job as a school librarian to focus on my family. I didn't realize how lonely being home would be without having my kids around. I am an extrovert. I need people. I learned that I need to have a life for myself OUTSIDE the home, and I began my quest in 2014 to find a professional library position. 

But even though I learned these things, the scale kept ticking up. And I realized in early 2014 that I wasn't building muscle, I was adding fat. And I still kept thinking that my diet hadn't changed. 

But it MUST have. 

Could there be any other reason?

I had blood work done by my doctor.

Everything looked ok.

And then I joined Weight Watchers online and I started tracking.

It was my food. I was severely exceeding my daily points.

I kept tracking and I kept exceeding. 

I kept gaining weight.

I keep gaining weight.

And then today in my time hop, this popped up.

5 years ago TODAY, I weighed in and was down 4 pounds.

All those feelings of what it felt like when I stepped on that scale Saturday morning after Saturday morning came flooding back to me.

It was empowering. 

And it was exactly what I needed.

I'm heading back to Weight Watchers meetings tomorrow. Same meeting, same time I started at nearly 6 years ago to the DAY! 

It's sort of surreal.

But I'm going back a changed woman. 

I'm stronger, I'm smarter, I love myself more, and I DO NOT have a goal weight in mind. I just want to feel comfortable again in my own skin.

As this wonderful blog post The "After" Myth pointed out 

There is today. There is now. There is during. There is life.

And I'm smiling Cool


9. March 2014 09:35
by jennifer

Weekly Workouts March 2-8

9. March 2014 09:35 by jennifer | 5 Comments

Having your home undergoing a major renovation is a lot of work. Not just for the contractors either.   Sunday-REST DAY. Spent the day doing prep work for the contractors. Total Steps: 15,919   Monday-CROSSFIT!! It felt good to be back in the box! I decided NOT to attempt Open workout 14.1 again. I decided to just keep the score I earned on the first go around. So I did the Monday WOD. For TIME complete 10 rounds: 1 clean and jerk (I did 65#) 3 chest to bar pullups (band assisted) 5 burpee box step ups We had a 20 minute cut-off and I think I finished around the 16 minute mark. It was a good workout and Coach Pete must have an inside connection at CrossFit HQ. Calories: 391 Total Steps: 15,325   Tuesday- REST DAY! I had a photo shoot today for a MAJOR NATIONAL magazine. It will be out in May. I took Matthew for a very nice long walk. Total Steps: 18,252   Wednesday-CrossFit!! Complete an 18 minute AMRAP of 5 push press (55#) 7 hanging knee raises 40 second sprint on the air dyne I completed 9 rounds AND then Karin and I were able to walk our post-wod 2 miles. It felt so good to do that again!! Calories: 725 Total Steps: 19,286   Thursday-CROSSFIT. I can't remember what we did! ACK!! I hate that. Calories: 379 Total Steps: 29,243 (holy steps!! I knew i was active, but WOW!!)   Friday-CROSSFIT!! Today we had the option of doing 14.2 but I wasn't ready for that, so I did a workout with my buddy Elisabeth. We did 4 rounds of: bicep curls X10 (15 pounds) shoulder press X10 (10 pounds) upright rows X10 (15 pounds) tricep dips deadlift X10 (95 pounds) And then for fun we did some ab work. Holding a 15 pound weight we did ab mat situps and Russian twists. Calories; 476 Total Steps:19,083   Saturday-REST DAY!! But not so much rest. I spent the day rearranging my kitchen and bath because our remodel in those areas is FINISHED!! Total Steps:13,542   Overall it was a good week. Still out of my normal routine, but I'm getting back to it this week. We don't have any contractors scheduled this week (yet....) but soon we'll have dudes in the house again redoing the flooring.   Total Steps for the week: 130,650!! That translates to 61.86 miles!!   How was your week in workouts?? Anything fun or exciting??

3. March 2014 14:00
by jennifer

Weekly Workouts February 23-March 1

3. March 2014 14:00 by jennifer | 0 Comments

I am so busy my head is spinning. As you probably know if you follow me on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or are a "real life" friend, my life is INSANE right now as we are totally remodeling our kitchen and 2 bathrooms. But I still made it to CrossFit! Here's how my week played out! Sunday-Rest day. I spent the day packing and moving household items in preparation for the contractors! Total Steps: 13,820   Monday-Crossfit CrossFit Open Workout 11.2Complete as many rounds and reps as possible in 15 minutes of:9 Deadlifts (155/100)12 Push-ups15 Box jumps (24/20) I completed a total of 237 reps AND RX'd the weight and box height. Pretty dang proud of myself! Calories: 627 Total Steps: 11,978. Not sure why this is so low. The only thing I can think of is that I didn't take Matthew for as many walks because I had strange men working in my house.   Tuesday-ACTIVE recovery. I spent the day ripping out all the flooring in my kitchen. I should have worn my  heart rate monitor because that was a killer workout! Total Steps: 19,385   Wednesday-CrossFit Every minute on the minute for 16 minutes: Even minutes: 40 second sprint on the Air Dyne Odd minutes: 5 hanging power snatches Calories: 383 Total Steps: 14,371   Thursday-CrossFit 5X5 HEAVY close grip bench press 12 minute AMRAP 5 power cleans 7 shoulder to overhead 9 front squats 11 hanging knee raises (should have been jump rope, but I was still babying my foot.) Calories: 325 Total Steps: 12,380   Friday-CrossFit It was the FIRST day of the CrossFit Open!It was a 10 minute AMRAP of 30 double unders and 15 snatches. In order to get a score you MUST do the workout EXACTLY as prescribed. The RX weight for the snatches was 55 pounds. I had that no problem. But double unders. UGH!! I thought I had them, man I thought I did, and so did my judge. I was on #26 of round one when Coach Jen came up and said something to the effect of "Jenny, sorry babe but those aren't double unders. You're just making the rope go faster but it's not going under your feet twice." SMH.  I somehow managed to pull out another 4, and got through one round of the snatches, and then started on round #2. It was not pretty. Not pretty at all. I got 3 in about 5 minutes. And since we were unsure of exactly how many of those 26 from the first round were "real" double unders, I submitted my score to CrossFit HQ as 3. Oh well. It is what it is. And boy do I have a funny/embarrassing story to share in another post! Calories: 325 Total Steps: 12,676   Saturday: I spent the day at the Southern Exchange Produce Expo. It was an amazing experience. I loved it! Total Steps: 14,331   Total Steps for the Week: 98,941 This is my LOWEST step count to date. It's all because of my remodel. I haven't been able to do my 2 mile post-WOD walk either. Sad face!   How was your week in workouts??