I Believe in Weight Watchers

I lost over 200lbs with the help of Weight Watchers. I'm guessing that I've managed to keep 90% of it off. This past year I have not tracked AT. ALL. I have not been to a meeting and I haven't weighed in.

Yikes. So hard to believe. Pun not intended.

I was part of their 2012 national advertising campaign BELIEVE. I was all over TV ads, I was being interviewed left and right by national media outlets. I believed in Weight Watchers, in myself, in EVERYTHING!



I think over the course of 2013 I believed that I could do it alone. Truth of the matter is, I CAN'T!  I NEED my weekly meetings. They INSPIRE me. They help to keep me on track. They help me to BELIEVE.

I'm excited and nervous for my weigh in tomorrow. I know I haven't gained back an awful lot, but I know I've gained. I can tell because my winter pants from last year don't fit. I know I've gained muscle in my legs, butt, arms and chest. But I also know that I've been eating too much and haven't been tracking.

That stopped YESTERDAY! I tracked all day yesterday and had a huge eye-opener when I found that my normal daily diet has me exceeding what I calculated my daily points to be. Oops. That's a problem.

I'm just glad that I realized something was going on before the issue got too out of hand.


Are you an introvert or an extrovert?? I am an extrovert. I NEED people!!

I Can Really Have it ALL

I had the opportunity to see Flashdance the Musical at The Straz Center in Tampa on Tuesday night. We went as a group, and some of us even dressed up in our favorite looks from the 1980's. I am in the back middle. I was picking up my tickets from will-call so this is the only picture with me in it.  It's okay, my look left a lot to be desired.

I do remember seeing Flashdance in the 1980's. I was 12 when it came out, so I'm sure I saw it in the theater with my mom, or perhaps we rented it on Beta Max. Cool But I clearly remember seeing the movie, and the songs of course, are pop icons. I was excited to see this performance. I don't know if it was the journey I've been on recently, (ya know this little thing called a 212lb weight loss and maintenance) but this musical really clicked for me in ways that it didn't when I was a child.

I sat alone during the performance and I think because of that I was able to really get "in to" the story. I watched as the lead Alex (played by Emily Padgett) struggles with her own identity and her desire to see her dreams become a reality. And as I followed along with the story and listened to the music, tapping my feet, singing in my head, I had a surge of power. If Alex (yes, I know she's a fictional character) can have it all, then damn it, I CAN TOO!! And the song What a Feeling took on a new meaning for me. It's now become my new manta and the first verse really hit home with me. My transformation was a slow glowing dream, fear hiding inside, I cried. Then I allowed myself to open up, to feel the rhythm, and I believed. And I was dancing for my life (NOT dancing in the literal sense of the word, but I was MOVING to save my life Tongue Out.) And I can have it all. I can have my life be the way I envision it. Will I have to work for it? YES!!  Good things don't come to people who sit on their ass. They have to DANCE FOR THEM!! And YOU can dance your way to having it all, too.

I loved this performance. It has empowered me. Check it out now at the Straz in Tampa until February 24th.

First, when there's nothing but a slow glowing dream
That your fear seems to hide deep inside your mind
All alone I have cried silent tears full of pride
In a world made of steel, made of stone

Well I hear the music, close my eyes, feel the rhythm
Wrap around, take a hold of my heart

What a feeling, bein's believin'
I can't have it all, now I'm dancin' for my life
Take your passion, and make it happen
Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life

Now I hear the music, close my eyes, I am rhythm
In a flash it takes hold of my heart

What a feeling

What a feeling (I am music now), bein's believin' (I am rhythm now)
Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life
What a feeling (I can really have it all)
What a feeling (Pictures come alive when I call)
I can have it all (I can really have it all)
Have it all (Pictures come alive when I call)
(call, call, call, call, what a feeling) I can have it all
(Bein's believin') bein's believin'
(Take your passion, make it happen) make it happen
(What a feeling) what a feeling...

[disclosure: I was given complimentary tickets to Flashdance, the Musical. All opinions are my own.]



Being Accountable

Yesterday was my daughter's 9th birthday. Hard to believe my little pixie has gone from this

PhotobucketTo this in just 9 years!! She's such an amazing girl. Smart, sensitive, cautious, inquisitive, friendly. And I am so lucky to be her mama and help her become the young lady that I see emerging.

We had a small birthday party for her last night. She had BIG parties for the first 3 years of her life, but by her 4th birthday, I had 3 kids, and my youngest has special needs and they were already starting to rear their ugly head by this time, so we pulled back on  big parties and just started celebrating at home with our immediate family. Last year we started a new tradition by taking the birthday kid out for a day of fun. Daddy took Haley last year to the Salvador Dali museum in St. Pete, and this year I took her SHOPPING!! She got to pick out an entire new wardrobe. She chose some great outfits, but did not enjoy the trying on part, so as soon as that started she was DONE! That's my girl. I hate shopping. Tongue Out

We had two of her friends over for a sleep-over last night. I thought her friends, and my trio might enjoy nibbling on some food that they don't normally have. So I let Haley pick foods out from the store that she knows her friends like. We got cheese puffs, chips and salsa and funyuns. And I made a veggie tray. And we ordered pizza and breadsticks from Papa John's. And we had Ben & Jerry's ice cream. And a huge cookie cake. And I indulged, perhaps too much. BUT....I tracked it all. I made myself accountable.



 And yes, I'm the type of tracker that tracks everything under one TIME! I don't separate it by morning, afternoon, evening.

Am I proud of the 73 total points for the day? HECK NO!! But I'm over it now. Yes, I am up 2 pounds on the scale this morning. Not a huge surprise. But I'll get it off this week. And in fact, this "binge" has sort of renewed my commitment to healthy eating because I felt like total crap last night, and I feel like crap this morning. My skin feels greasy, I feel like I have a muffin top. It's gross. And I don't like it. I wanted to show you all that I am HUMAN. I mess up. I make mistakes. I know some people allow themselves "cheat meals" but I don't. Healthy eating is my way of life. This is not a normal thing for me. Maybe if I had allowed myself cheat meals throughout my journey I wouldn't be so hard on myself today, but since I didn't and I don't plan on starting, it's difficult to accept this, but I have and I have moved on!

Now what I should have done is made my homemade whole wheat pizza and bread sticks. Next time.

Onward and upward!! Believe. Expect Amazing. Balance.