Music Monday: Through My Eyes

My amazing 7 year old son is Autistic. As he's gotten older some of his "quirks" have gotten "quirker." I am often his voice as he can't explain how he is feeling or thinking. Sunday we went to a sold-out Rays baseball game. It was loud, very loud. It was crowded, very crowded with over 30,000 people in attendance. Fans screaming, cowbells ringing; it was sensory overload for my au-some little dude. There was no place for him to escape from the noise. After he tucked himself in to a modified fetal position I knew it was time to go.

It's so hard for people to understand what he must go through. I'll NEVER forget when he was 4 years old and he told me "mama, my brain feels like it's on fire." It was at that moment that I understood that when he's going through sensory overload he's in PAIN! I do every thing I can to try to avoid situations that might be painful for him. We've been to Rays games before and haven't had an issue, but we've never been to a sold-out game, and I didn't even know it was sold-out until we arrived. Had I known in advance I would not have taken him.  I'm sorry for that little buddy. Cry
For Ronin and all children (and adults) who live with Autism, I play for you today "Through My Eyes" by Scott James.
See the world through my eyes
It changes shape and it changes size
It's not quite the world you see
If you could find a way to look around inside my mind
Maybe you would understand me
I'm not blind, but I can't always see
I'm not deaf, but things can sound strange to me
I'm not trapped, but it's hard to feel free
Imagine what it's like to be me
Imagine what it's like to be me
It's hard for me to try to think things through or talk like you
Everything can be a blur sometimes
But if you walk along beside me, hold my hand and guide me
Together any mountain we can climb
I'm dreaming of my future and it's brighter than you know
I'll get there on a different road when I am ready to go
I don't need pity, I don't need tears
I just need someone to help me understand my fears
Tell me you believe in me, let me know that i'm OK
Help me feel safe in the world, and I will find my way
Imagine what it's like
Imagine seeing the world Through My Eyes

I love you, Ronin! XOXO

As an adult how do YOU handle sensory overload?

Music Monday: Summertime!

Every summer there seems to be ONE song that becomes my "song of summer."  My trio also seem to pick the same summer songs that I do, and we enjoy jamming out to them at home, in the car, on our bike rides. We turn it up, we sing loudly, and shake our groove thing!

This is our Song of Summer for 2013


This was our Song of Summer 2012


This was our Song of Summer for 2011

This was our Song of Summer for 2010


And kicking it back to the Song of Summer for 1996!!

I Love You Always and Forever  transports me back to a very special time in my life. I was in college and I was home for summer break and had the most amazing group of friends; Nina, Tyke, Pat and Denis. I still have Nina and Denis in my life. Pat I haven't heard from since that summer. and Tyke. Dear Sweet Tyke. He took his own life in 2000. We were the best of friends, always together when I came home from college. We never had a romantic relationship, and I miss him terribly. He was my confidant, my sounding board, my "go-to" wedding date, and so much more.

Do you have a Song of Summer?? What's your 2013 song?

Music Monday: Pour some sugar on me

Oh good grief! July has been a tough month for me food wise! Two birthdays in the same week, and I'll admit I HAD TOO MUCH CAKE!! In the past, I didn't eat cake at the kids birthday parties. I wasn't even tempted. But July has been hard for me. I don't know why, but it has been. I'm ready for the kids to go back to school so that MY normal routine can return!!

I had cake. Too much cake. I feel awful. Bloated and gross. It wasn't worth it. Blah. And it's not just the sugar. It's the gluten. Time to kick the clean eating back in to high gear!!

For today's Music Monday I am spinning "Pour Some Sugar on Me" by Def Leppard. Not that I need sugar poured on me because I can feel it leaching out of my skin. But I ate the cake out of love for my Irish Twins. Ya, that's the excuse I'll use.

So now I am in detox mode. Big time.

Do you like cake? What type is your favorite??