My grandpa passed away quite suddenly in June 2012. His death threw my life into some sort of weird alternate universe. I seemed to be floating, not quite sure where I was going to land. Throw in to that mix a sudden decision to leave my job in early November and focus on blogging, my social media career, writing my book, a total change to my daily schedule, the crazy holiday season and suddenly here we are in 2013. Wow. I've had some time recently to think about my life, my direction, my focus and I feel at peace with the decisions I've made. Yes, there were changes. And although some of the changes made have not been positive and many were out of my control, they have all brought me to the place where I am today.
"Opportunity often comes disguised in the form of misfortune, or temporary defeat." -Napoleon Hill
I am in a good place now. I feel calm. I feel in control. I embrace the change.
Yesterday was my daughter's 9th birthday. Hard to believe my little pixie has gone from this
To this in just 9 years!! She's such an amazing girl. Smart, sensitive, cautious, inquisitive, friendly. And I am so lucky to be her mama and help her become the young lady that I see emerging.
We had a small birthday party for her last night. She had BIG parties for the first 3 years of her life, but by her 4th birthday, I had 3 kids, and my youngest has special needs and they were already starting to rear their ugly head by this time, so we pulled back on big parties and just started celebrating at home with our immediate family. Last year we started a new tradition by taking the birthday kid out for a day of fun. Daddy took Haley last year to the Salvador Dali museum in St. Pete, and this year I took her SHOPPING!! She got to pick out an entire new wardrobe. She chose some great outfits, but did not enjoy the trying on part, so as soon as that started she was DONE! That's my girl. I hate shopping.
We had two of her friends over for a sleep-over last night. I thought her friends, and my trio might enjoy nibbling on some food that they don't normally have. So I let Haley pick foods out from the store that she knows her friends like. We got cheese puffs, chips and salsa and funyuns. And I made a veggie tray. And we ordered pizza and breadsticks from Papa John's. And we had Ben & Jerry's ice cream. And a huge cookie cake. And I indulged, perhaps too much. BUT....I tracked it all. I made myself accountable.
And yes, I'm the type of tracker that tracks everything under one TIME! I don't separate it by morning, afternoon, evening.
Am I proud of the 73 total points for the day? HECK NO!! But I'm over it now. Yes, I am up 2 pounds on the scale this morning. Not a huge surprise. But I'll get it off this week. And in fact, this "binge" has sort of renewed my commitment to healthy eating because I felt like total crap last night, and I feel like crap this morning. My skin feels greasy, I feel like I have a muffin top. It's gross. And I don't like it. I wanted to show you all that I am HUMAN. I mess up. I make mistakes. I know some people allow themselves "cheat meals" but I don't. Healthy eating is my way of life. This is not a normal thing for me. Maybe if I had allowed myself cheat meals throughout my journey I wouldn't be so hard on myself today, but since I didn't and I don't plan on starting, it's difficult to accept this, but I have and I have moved on!
Now what I should have done is made my homemade whole wheat pizza and bread sticks. Next time.
Onward and upward!! Believe. Expect Amazing. Balance.
In this Come to Jesus episode Jenny discusses the importance of group fitness!